I got a mail from my film editor sis-in-law Jabeen in April
2011. The mail told me about the Mumbai Mantra Sundance Institute
screenwriter’s workshop. Jabeen felt I should send in the screenplay I was
working on. She sent me the link to the Mumbai Mantra Sundance Institute
Screenwriter’s Lab. I went to their site and found a typewriter with a question
in bold written over it. ‘Do you have a story to tell?’ it asked.
Wow! I sure did have a story to tell. In fact I had lots of
stories to tell. Were they screen worthy? I really didn’t know. Was I a writer?
Could writing by default be considered writing? I started writing because I
wanted to direct the stories I wanted to tell. And who better to write the
stories than the one who has thought them, right? I wasn’t so sure. Writing for
screen is definitely not a random, need based act. I had seen many masters
falter, so a whimsical writer like I, would; most definitely! My first
screenplay was adapted from my mom’s beautiful novel and I found that pretty
easy to work out. But to write for the screen based on my own ideas was already
posing to be a problem. I would start with some fantastic ideas, themes, and
characters. I proceeded to write. But half way through the screenplay, I ended
up hating the very idea, theme or character I had started out with.
Sigh! I needed help.
I needed guidance. So this screenwriter’s workshop with its impeccable
reputation (The venerable Sundance Institute and the Mahindras who started
Mumbai Mantra) was just what the script doctor ordered. But submissions were
just around the corner and being a full time mom to two young boys would make
it difficult for me to make the deadline in time. So I didn’t try. But the
visual of the typewriter against a yellow background with the caption “Do
you have a story to tell?” beckoned enticingly. I decided to try
the next year.
The story I wanted to tell was unconventional for two reasons:
1) It was completely women centric and 2) The women were intelligent and talented.
Only people who looked at film not just as something by which you make money, would
want to have anything to do with a film like this. So I logged on:
Rush, write, be mom, be wife, be daughter, be employer, rush,
write, write at all costs; write against all odds; write period.
Whew! Managed to send the first five pages, synopsis et al……ab
kyaa? Ab waiting! I plodded through the script at a less frenetic pace. I kept
out thoughts of not being selected for the Lab and convinced myself that even
if I didn’t get selected I would make it into a movie……”Tribhanga”......that’s
what it is named. Felt strange that some nameless and faceless people all over
the world were reading my ideas at that very moment.
20-7-2012: Got a mail to say my screenplay idea was selected. Can’t describe the joy I felt. My first 5
pages were liked. But now I had to submit the other 90!!!
Rush, write, be mom, be wife, be daughter, be employer, rush,
write, write at all costs, against all odds, WRITE!!!
NO NAME ON THE SCREENPLAY. Just a number. Wonder how many
screenplays have been selected? Doubts. Self- doubts.
They were supposed to get back in December.
December’s nearly over.
Guess I have not been selected.
They said they’ll mail us a rejection.
Check spam.
No acceptance mail L
But no rejection mail either J
Sigh! It’s the new year.
I’m bipolar. L
All writers are bipolar. J
You can only write if you are bipolar. J J
Ya! Ya! Happy new year and all that!
24-1-2013. I’ve got mail from Mumbai Mantra.
I’m hyperventilating! I’ve been SELECTED!!!!!!
My elder kid gets a huge packet of Lays and my younger one a
huge sundae! Mere saath unki bhi lottery lag gayi.
Things move faster after the selection. I want to know who the
advisors are, who the other fellows are. I have to take off for 5 days. Five, whole
days? Five whole, luxurious days?
We are invited to a dinner at Mahesh Lunch home on the 9th
of March. An ice breaker right before we’re cocooned at the Club Mahindra
resort Tungi near Lonavla.
I meet the face behind those wonderful mails, Aparna Purohit, in
person. I feel the warmth. It feels as if I’ve known her for years!!!
Some of my advisors-Anjum Rajabali, Marti Noxon, Carlos Cuaron,
Paul Federbush, Michelle Satter. Wow! And at last, my fellows, Sarthak Dasgupta
who has got the Global filmmaker’s award this year, Kavanjit Singh from Pune,
Abhijit Mazumdar, Pratim D Gupta from Kolkatta, Nitin Kakkar and the lovely
Neha Sinha. Terrie Samundra, our 8th fellow was flying in from LA
and would only be with us the next morning. We had a meal full of hope,
happiness, laughter and anticipation. And stories about how Kavanjit sliced his
finger and nerve on a sharp knife. By the end of the evening I had heard 6
different versions that were all very entertaining; a version for every new
person who asked.
What did I expect? I was among writers!
10-3-2013: I still suffer from separation anxiety. Each day when
I drop my kids to school I feel a little knot in my stomach. Today I had to
tear myself away from them. I was not going to see their innocent morning faces
for the next five days (it’s strange how the same faces take the shape of
little monsters as the day changes to darkness-but that’s another story!)
Destination J W Marriott:
We are
introduced to what to expect from the Lab in general and from today,
specifically. Wow! I'm in the presence of Michelle Satter from the Sundance Institute!And Paul Federbush! And our amazing creative advisors!
We are expected to introduce ourselves and especially our
screenplays very briefly. Whew! What does one say about oneself and one’s
scripts succinctly? How does one share one’s journey in just three minutes?
Yet, as each one of us clears our throat and talks about our work, it flows
easily and we get to know a piece of ourselves.
Michelle: “It’s not about getting answers, it’s
about asking the right questions.”
Would I be able to do that?
Excitement overshadows all self-doubt for the moment.
Fellow! I’m a Fellow! Wow! It almost seems as if I’ve been
honoured with an award already. And I realise I have! We are told- Out of 500
first five pages, 200 were selected, of which only 30 screenplays were chosen
for the final perusal and our screenplays were judged worthy of the final 8! I
felt lauded already.
THE PRESS MEET: I’m glad we were given a chance to speak about
our screenplays earlier.... we had to do the same in front of the press this
time. My turn came. I’ve never been so nervous facing an audience in a long
time. I remembered the first time I went onto the stage to perform. I spoke
about my doubts about myself as a writer and I spoke about ‘Tribhanga’. It was
over as soon as it began! Now I could relax! J
THE BRUNCH: I am not
a very crowd friendly person. I like small, intimate get togethers and the
brunch was anything but that! After the photo ops and interviews I went looking
for Jabeen, who was there to see me off. It took me half an hour to find her!
There were people from the film and TV industry, as far as my eye could see. It
looked like the Kumbh Mela! I took refuge with my other fellows who looked
equally lost. There was a huge spread but I just didn’t have the stomach for
it. I wanted to run home to my kids.
Could I do that?
‘Renuka
Shahane-Screenriting Fellow’ the tag around my neck drew my attention to
itself. I held it like a child holding her mother’s hand. Onwards to Club
Mahindra Tungi! If this doesn’t help me grow ‘literally’, nothing else ever
will!
Every journey has a
reason. There seemed to be no reason to the last 10kms before reaching
the beautiful Club Mahindra resort. The road was so excruciating! It seemed as
if all the supremely bad BMC contractors from pot-holed Mumbai had conspired to
build this stretch of road. Why was the road leading to heaven(that’s the way
the resort was described to us) so rocky? We were beyond looking for any reason!
Paul Federbush tried gamely to keep his countenance pleasant even though his
face had changed into unimaginable colours. Luckily 10 kms is not a lifetime. I
see the villagers walking that stretch with learned ease and when the decrepit
building we pass announces itself as a ‘Primary School’for the village kids, I
feel the guilty weight of my conscience berating my snootiness. Every journey
has a reason!
At last we’ve
reached the Club Mahindra resort, our home for the next five days. We are
greeted by eight 'nagadaas' beating the typical Marathi rhythm. Michelle, Sneha
and I are gifted small shawls, a mark of respect, on our arrival; while Paul is
made to wear a ‘saafaa’,a traditional Marathi turban. I must say Paul is
remarkably at ease as his head is being tamed under the expert hands of the
turban dresser.
A glorious view awaited us on the other side of the lobby. Lake Pavna on one side and the Tungi watch tower on the other. Chhatrapati Shivaji once ruled this rough land. Tungi was a watch tower for his army. Historic!
We are shown to our respective rooms. Everything is thought of. Rohit Khattar,Aparna Purohit-deep respect! You put in so much love and passion in the most mundane things, the experience becomes truly elevating. The room’s beautiful!
Dinner is a time to
be mesmerised by the canopy of stars above our heads. We are getting closer to
the dream that has brought us all here. Our screenplays. Tomorrow it will be
about that.
Tomorrow I will post
about Day 1 of our Lab.
Picture abhi baaki
hai mere doston!
It is lovely to view The Lab Experience and re-live some shared memories Renuka.I eagerly look forward to Day 1!
ReplyDeleteI too wrote a little something.
http://needstotalk.wordpress.com/2013/03/18/the-cure/